He can’t tell the difference between himself and his character anymore. Maybe Augie’s gone, and it’s all just him. The lines have blurred too much, it’s too close to home. He’s surrounded by metaphors for his own suffering, craters, grim reaper aliens, a burned hand, a crashed car. Walls that are paper-thin, or non-existent.
Imagine you’re in love with a playwright, and he writes a play — before he even meets you — about how you’ll be unable to grieve or process his death, which hasn’t happened yet. And he asks you to star in it, and then he dies, and you still have to play that role.
“I feel like my heart is getting broken,” Jones says, “my own personal heart, every night.”